Five years ago today I gave birth to my first child, my wonderful daughter Scarlett. Like most women who become mothers, my whole soul was transformed. Now there was this tiny being, fully dependent on me, when up to that point I had never been fully independent myself. My life was no longer my own.
In that transformation a new need awakened. A need to document, yes, but also a need to process, create, and understand our connected and intertwined lives. I needed a way to see through the fog of sleep deprivation, inadequacy and panic. I needed a way to capture those moments fully of light and joy, for those times where I felt darkness. As a mother, I was now more than just myself and I needed something to aid in my development and my life.
I am so grateful that photography has been one of my trusted companions on this journey of motherhood. It is sometimes only through my lens that I can find calm; the breath before the breakdown. It allows me to take a step back from the chaos and listen to my heart that is always singing the sublime and unending love song of a mother to her child.
I sit here today, bursting with gratitude for this amazing little girl who has filled our lives and countless lives around her with love and joy. I am so thankful that she is patient with me and I am thankful that I have found my art through her, the little one that inspires me every day.
I owe so much to you, my amazing little girl. I love you. Happy Birthday.
Amanda Voelker is a fine art and lifestyle photographer. With her children and light as her inspiration, Amanda finds beauty in the everyday. She strives to capture the subtleties of human emotion and connection in a beautiful way that showcases both the moment and a piece of her self. Amanda is also the Co Creator and Editor in Chief of “The Long Way Home” Magazine and instructor at "The Bloom Forum"