These past couple months have not been my best. They haven’t been my best as a person who remembers to comb their hair or as a mother who sticks to screen time limits. They haven’t been my best at folding laundry, or cooking, or being patient with my husband. They haven’t been my best at making deadlines, running a FB page and being an organized partner (sorry Cindy). They certainly haven’t been my best as an artist. There are a ton of reasons why, many of them good reasons, but the specifics don’t change the truth that these past couple months have felt like I’ve been trudging through snow, rather than running effortlessly along a path.
I’m kind of tired of freaking out about this, though, as I’ve already done plenty of that. Questions like, “When will I be loving what I create again?” and “Why is this hard right now?” are annoying to me (and certainly my patient husband as well). Instead, I’m trying something new. I’m just going to own where I am right now. It’s not the best, but it certainly isn’t the worst. I am still on a path forward, even if it’s not as fast as I’d like it to be. I still find moments where I want to photograph, even if they aren’t as often as I wish and I am still surrounded by what I love and what inspires me most.
So, in this time of slow growth and seemingly frustrated progress, I am choosing to go back to my roots and pay attention to what is around me. I don’t need to search high and low for my art. I don’t need to live in the most beautiful place (oh Washington, I miss you so much). Everything I need to continue to be inspired and create is right in front of me. There will be times for grand adventures and new crazy growth, but for now I will just keep going and be content in the knowledge that at least I’m moving.
Amanda Voelker is a fine art and lifestyle photographer. With her children and light as her inspiration, Amanda finds beauty in the everyday. She strives to capture the subtleties of human emotion and connection in a beautiful way that showcases both the moment and a piece of her self. Amanda is also the Co Creator and Editor in Chief of “The Long Way Home” Magazine and instructor at "The Bloom Forum"